"Oliver, I hope you think of me once in awhile, and when you do, I hope they are good thoughts..."

-The House Bunny-

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[A Reflection] If We Die, We Die, But First, We Live

06 April 2018 Jumat cerah di Jakarta, tidak ada yang lebih istimewa dari mendapati salah satu manusia yang paling saya cintai di muka bumi sedang berkunjung. Ibu saya datang memenuhi janjinya menemani saya mencari kain di Pasar Mayestik. Di usia-usia seperempat abad seperti saya ini, kegiatan mencari kain di Pasar Mayestik mungkin menjadi kegiatan yang sangat berarti.
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Time and time again, I always hear people say: when you know, you know. When The One God created for you comes along, you will know. But technically and realistically, how do I know?
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What is meant for you, will reach you even if it is between two mountains; And what isn't meant for you, won't reach you even if it is between your two lips.
As days go by, I have come to understand the meaning of such quotes. Not just getting to know the literal meaning of each word, but trying to wholeheartedly accept the consequence that lies within the quote . 
Tentu, tidak jarang ada suara lain dalam hati saya yang mengeluh, merasa kecewa, dan sulit untuk menerima keadaan yang sedang saya hadapi. Suara yang kerap kali berbicara dengan nada yang saya tidak sukai. Meski pada akhirnya saya harus berani mengakui bahwa suara itu kurang lebih merupakan bagian dari diri sendiri.
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